Registered for 15 months now

When we originally started this journey we were informed that our wait would be at the most 18 months but most probably 12 months. Now we are at 15 months wait and will most likely not receive a referral until 24 months of waiting. It is soooo hard. I thought being pregnant for 9 months was hard, this is so much harder especially when your friends are having babies that started after you. It is hard being patient, it is hard planning vacations, it is just plain hard waiting on the Lord. Isn't it amazing how the Lord speaks to you in His Word. I am currently studying the book of James and today we discussed how we shouldn't plan our tomorrows, as we are a vapor in the wind. We might not even be here tomorrow. With the adoption going on, we are struggling with this one. Planning family vacations etc is difficult when you think you need your vacation days saved to travel overseas for the adoption. I am at the point now where I don't want to stop living, life goes on and we will just live each day to the fullest for His glory. The book of James has also taught me that we grow to maturity in Christ through our trials. I know this trial is not something huge like cancer or a death of a loved one, but it is a trial nother the less. I am learning to let go of things I can't control, not to be a controller of circumstances, lean on God, and to pray without ceasing, give thanks in all things and the one I need to still work on is rejoicing always! The book of James is so rich, another favorite book for me and very convicting.